From VanNat

Yesterday, I had a panic attack at work.

I’ve been experiencing panic attacks since I was in my twenties. Even after all these years, I still can’t explain how they started. I have my own ways of managing them, and I try to use those techniques when I feel one coming on. But sometimes, they’re simply overwhelming.

Years ago, people didn’t acknowledge panic attacks the way they do today. Many believed they were “all in your head.” If you had never experienced one, it was easy to think someone was exaggerating or just needed to calm down.

But they’re real.

The hardest part is that they often come out of nowhere. One moment you’re fine, and the next you’re convinced something terrible is about to happen. Your heart races, your thoughts spiral, and you feel disconnected from everything around you, almost as if you’re walking on a cloud.

For years, I kept this part of my life to myself because I was afraid people would think I was weak or that I was making it up.

I hide my panic attacks very well. Most people I work with would never know I’m struggling because, on the outside, I keep doing my job and act like everything is okay. The hardest part is that panic attacks are invisible. The people around us often have no idea what we’re are experiencing.

When the panic attack is finally over, I don’t feel relieved right away. I feel emotionally and physically drained. All I want to do is lie down and sleep. It’s as if my body has run a marathon. People often only see the few minutes of panic, but they don’t see how long it can take to recover afterward.

After all these years, I still don’t have all the answers. I’m still learning how to live with panic attacks instead of letting them control me.

One thing that has helped me is distraction. Sometimes redirecting my mind, even for a few moments, helps me get through the worst of it. It doesn’t always make the panic disappear, but it can help me regain control.

If you suffer from panic attacks, please know this:

You are not alone.

I understand you because I’ve lived it for years.

I have your back. If you ever need someone to listen, I’ll listen. If talking or finding a distraction helps you, I’ll gladly sit with you until the moment passes.

No one should have to face panic attacks feeling ashamed or alone. We never truly know what someone else is silently battling.

Be kind. Sometimes the strongest people are fighting battles that no one else can see.

If you’ve experienced panic attacks, what has helped you? Your story might be exactly what someone else needs to hear today.